The Stephanie Files

The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say commonplace things, but burn burn burn like fabulous yellow roman candles, exploding like spiders across the stars. John Kerouac- On the Road Have you ever met someone, whether platonic or romantic that you just couldn’t shake?  They continued to show up in your life, and you felt the constant pull of opposite forces both telling you different things? One said this person was meant to be something special, so you put yourself out there only to have the other force tell you to stop! Something is off! Sometimes we have moments where life literally stops us in our tracks and we just know without a doubt that we need to cut ties and change directions.  Other times, we are left to read the signs and listen to our instincts. So what do you do when something “feels off” but there is no reason for it ...

“A woman in her glory, a woman of beauty, is a woman who is not striving to become beautiful or worthy or enough. She knows in her quiet center where God dwells that he finds her beautiful, has deemed her worthy, and in him, she is enough.” Captivating I have struggled with this for years. The first time I read the book, and even the second time, I don’t even think the depth of this particular passage sank in. Correction- I know it didn’t. For many years I think I took the book at a very basic level, it was meant to tell me HOW to be captivating. It was a book I read to give me advice on how to be liked, and loved, and desired. So you can imagine my frustration after many years of coveting this book, I still did not feel the part. The part of a beautiful woman that is. It took a lot of failed tries and taking some hard looks at myself to really figure out what the message really was. About finding your identity in Christ. About letting HIM mold you into the woman you were meant t...